Not Ready

Rosh HaShanah approaches. 

I am not ready.  This
Year, I am not ready. 

It is still that dark day:
Ravagers raging,
Borders blasted,
That holiday violated. 

I have not left that day
Though I have aged more than
A year since that date
Less than a year ago. 

I am not ready although
I will be, still shocked, 
In shul to mark 
A not quite fresh year. 

We will sing the prayers,
Heavy hearted,
To ask the Shepard 
To protect his flock.
This not quite fresh year.